When I was about 13 I saw Jesus and from that time on I haven’t believed in Him.
See He told me not to worry about religion or other hidden things
– seems they just can’t be understood in this frame of reference. No, I am not making this up – maybe it was a dream but all I can say for sure is – I woke up – saw a pillar of light – was scared witless
And then felt total peace – It wasn’t a chat – I got a sentence or two; it was over and I was out again – almost instantly but the troubled sleep I was having was gone and I slept very well after that.
I was always good at religion – so much of it seemed second nature to me – and I found it very easy to see the paradoxes and falsehoods – not always in the scripture but in doctrine and the people who said they were something they were not [judging by the way they conducted themselves in life]
I also began to discover that what ever the guiding hand was – it had a sense of humor and not one that wasn’t above very low forms of humor – irony really seemed to be the true order of it and that works well for me – best to think about your humor than have it spelled out for you.
Serendipity and Synchronicity also seem to be very important – yet no true pattern has ever really emerged to me – It seems there may be one but I am not the sort to discover such things other than as incidental to my own experience.
So, much later in life, I found myself drawn to dancing in clubs with polyrhythmic music, flashing lights and the occasional fog machine. I began to notice an odd thing – a sort of synergy of the dancers, even when they were all doing their own thing – it was as if there was energy present that had nothing to do with the gathering – I began to have very odd experiences – interactions and ideas – the more I thought about it the more it seemed that our primal past was being acted out in a modern setting and the actors had no idea of what was really happening around them.
The Church of the Inconsequential Tantric Dance of the Ironic That, That Is
– came into being.
There have been several names along the way and maybe an update or reversion at some point – as the Phalse Profit of said Church, I, much like the Pope, get to make the rules and am infallible on those points – even when I change my mind
'That, That Is' has been' Is That Is' – or 'Is That Am' and a couple I forget – for awhile it was The First Church but it seemed silly that there would ever be 2 so it is now just The Church
So, what’s in a name?
Not so fast first the rule(s) – No Prostylitizing - if you don’t know on your own that you belong then, you don’t. So no door to door, no tracts left in odd places for the unwashed.
If you can’t see it – then you aren’t there – enjoy where you are.
The beauty of The Church is it has no temple – it is wherever It manifest itself – as I recall the God of the Israelites never wanted a temple – it was the people who demanded one – well here the temple builds itself – The Dance can be anywhere, anytime – if you are so bold as to follow certain theories of Physics you may know that the very atoms we are made of dance and so even when still – The Dance goes on.
Tantra is often seen as sex – and some will say sex underlines everything that living things do - but there is also the less known [hidden?] meaning of Weave and/or Continuity.
So contemplate how that all folds together and see where it leads. You may be surprised!
I think I have covered the ironic portion – no depth here – you have to work it or it works you.
That, That Is – There are some Gods described as simply the thing that is – Actually I stole 'TTI' from a song by the band Yes – it seemed much more apropos than my original conception.
Taken by some as just a joke – my being silly – irreverent or even antireligious – it is all and none of that. Take from it what you will but it is my vision and my way of finding something whole, beautiful and true while being exasperating.
I claim agnosticism – that is – how can a temporal, finite being understand That, That Is when that is what it ain’t.
Beings are effected by time and have definite limits – it seems to me that God would be outside of time and have no limits – what is, is all of everything and a bit more; we are simply a small portion of that, but we are a part of it, not separate.
The Dance goes on even if we are not conscious of our participation. It spirals and moves to a constant rhythm – sometimes our lust and desires cause us to find that movement and connect with the larger whole – and sometimes by quiet contemplation we find the ??? too.
Information overload is modern inconvenience but imagine all there is to know and then knowing it – it is in the Dance that it comes to us best it can, for now.
So, be it alone – in a group or in loving solitude with your partner – this thing I call The Dance is present – and That, That Is – is all around and a part of you – and if you look closely enough – you’ll find the subtly humor it is wrapped in.
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